Loving Oneness Now
Lee Lozowick recounted a version of this story in his book, Laughter of the Stones. However, he attributes its origins to a character in a comic strip called Sluggo who owns a goldfish in a bowl. What follows is my own version of Sluggo and his fish.
I will give the fish in the bowl the
THE FISH IN THE BOWL IN THE LAKE
One day Sluggo decided that it was
unfair to keep his goldfish confined inside a little bowl, so he took Goldie in
the bowl to a lake nearby and poured the water, including Goldie, into the lake.
The startled goldfish darted off and began to tentatively explore the lake where
he encountered much bigger fish, murky waters, dark caves and slimy weeds. He
saw bright shimmering light up above, light he did not understand. Goldie sensed
the occasional currents that carried him along without his effort and this made
him feel insecure, even unstable.
Sluggo, who was still standing at the
water's edge trying to see Goldie, looked at his empty fishbowl, and deciding he
had no further use for it, tossed it out into the lake where it sank to the
bottom. Then Sluggo shrugged and walked home.
Before long, an anxious Goldie
returned to the area where Sluggo had deposited him into the lake, and, after
mooching around for a while, espied the glass bowl sitting intact on the sandy
"Thank God," exclaimed a highly relieved Goldie as he swam inside his little bowl, "now I am safe at home again where I will not have to cope with all those strange fearsome creatures and unsettling experiences that exist out there in that vast lake of the void.
Here are some quotes from Raj/Jesus
which are very pertinent to the above allegorical story of Goldie. Just think of
Goldie's bowl as the individual ego-box that each of us has
invented. Both internally and externally, we each live in our separated
ego-boxes because they are comforting, familiar and secure in a world and
universe that can, at times, seem turbulent, weird and threatening. When reading
the following excerpts it is important to understand that the whole ego-box
of mutually agreed upon definitions, beliefs and emotions does have to be
entirely undone in order to Wake up to our Real
Raj Excerpt – ACIM Course Study with Raj/Jesus -- 2005-04-17
I'm going to start out with some good news. With all this talk about the ego and how it's not your friend, and so on, together with the sloppy way or careless way in which reference to the ego is made, it can seem that you have become an ego. "I am an ego. I have actually become something different from What God Created. And I'm living out a life that expresses ego-hood." And this [false] definition of yourself as an ego becomes part of the box from which you experience [very limited] being.
And because, through careless thinking, you think of yourself as an ego, and [because] now you know that there's more to life than ego-hood, you think that you have to overcome this thing called "an ego." And it makes it sound as though you have to abandon what you are, [and] you have to somehow stop being what you have become. [Thus] it's possible for you to begin to think that your Waking up is going to be the extinction of you, because the Real You is so radically different. And that's not something an ego wants to do--become extinct. And so there is a part of you that resists Waking up, even though you are desiring to Wake up.
(C-050417/R-8) through (C-050417/R-9)
Raj Excerpt -- Hood River, Oregon--October 1995
Your desire to be Awake comes from the fact that you are already the whole Blackboard [the Real You that God created] and It is constantly insinuating Itself into the [ego-] box that has been drawn [by you on the blackboard]. That is why the box, called the ego-structures, has to be constantly reinforced [by defenses and opaqueness].
And so the fact is that your Waking up will never be the result of [the ego-] self that you think you are from within the [ego-] box that has decided to do this "marvelously intelligent [ego-] thing" called Waking up.
(G-1995O/R-289) through (G-1995O/R-290)
in case all this has stirred up ego-box-anxiety in some of you, here is a
reassuring quote (also by Raj/Jesus) from the ACIM Workbook:
There is nothing to fear.
The idea for today simply states a fact. It is not a fact to those who believe in illusions, but illusions are not facts. In truth there is nothing to fear. It is very easy to recognize this. But it is very difficult to recognize it for those who want illusions to be true.
Today's practice periods will be very short, very simple and very frequent. Merely repeat the idea as often as possible. You can use it with your eyes open at any time and in any situation. It is strongly recommended, however, that you take a minute or so whenever possible to close your eyes and repeat the idea slowly to yourself several times. It is particularly important that you use the idea immediately, should anything disturb your peace of mind.
The presence of fear is a sure sign that you are trusting in your own [ego-] strength. The awareness that there is nothing to fear shows that somewhere in your mind, though not necessarily in a place you recognize as yet, you have remembered God, and let His Strength take the place of your [ego-] weakness. The instant you are willing to do this there is indeed nothing to fear.
Loving Oneness Now -- Copyright © 2007 Alexander Bannatyne, PhD