Loving Oneness Now
I have had three clients with full-blown AIDS over the years and all three have died with the knowledge that there is life after "death." One of them, whom I saw many years ago, was a high school teacher named Mike. He was very dear to me and if I had been gay I would have been very attracted to Mike because he was such a fine authentic person. Mike loved children and wanted a family of his own. He and his close lesbian girl-friend were considering marriage and a home together, so they could have children whilst still maintaining their other relationships. AIDS had ruined that happy prospect. I worked with Mike's Guides to reassure him this was just another phase of his eternal life, and in the end he accepted that. One of his dreams that he recounted to me started out on a rather dismal note, but, when we went back into it in altered state therapy, the ending was dramatically different.
Mike said that in the dream he was wandering naked, wet, cold and lonely on a bleak windswept plain in the dark of night surrounded by snakes and prowling lions. Lightning flashed to reveal black rocks and skeleton-like trees, and Mike stumbled around unable to find any way out. Then, after some time, he saw a gaping black hole not far away, and he knew it was the hole of death, a bottomless void of which he was terrified. Because he had full blown AIDS this was an accurate ego-dream picture of his inner fears.
I told Mike we should go back into that dream, with him in an altered state, and he agreed to do so.
long he was again looking at that black hole and (in an altered state) re-living the terror it held
WALK UP TO THE EDGE OF THE HOLE, MIKE.
Mike: Okay, but it is very scary... I'm about two feet from the edge, but it's just black down there.
Alex: ALL RIGHT, MIKE, SIT DOWN ON THE EDGE WITH YOUR LEGS DANGLING.
Mike: You're crazy, that's asking too much... GO ON, DO IT... ... Okay I'm sitting there, it's about thirty feet across and very dark and forbidding... can I leave now?
Alex: NO, YOU MUST JUMP INTO THE HOLE, GO ON, JUMP...
Mike: You're insane. I can't do that... I'll die... Never... I can't do it...
Alex: GO ON. DO AS I SAY, JUST JUMP IN THAT HOLE... BE BRAVE... [It took me ten minutes to persuade Mike to jump off the edge, to let go...]
Mike: All right but I know I'll die... Here goes... I've pushed myself off into the hole and I'm falling fast... falling into the pitch blackness... [Silence]
Alex: WHAT'S HAPPENING NOW?
Mike: I'm slowing down a little, not falling so quickly... Now I'm going much slower...
Alex: KEEP ON TELLING ME WHAT IS HAPPENING....
Mike: Well, it's getting lighter now... It's not a dark as it was... And I'm falling like a feather... slowly... from side to side... It's much lighter now, and I can see lots of light below me....
Alex: OKAY, JUST KEEP TALKING ABOUT IT....
Mike: I'm still falling softly and its so bright with light I can hardly see... so bright... only light... Oh...Oh...Oh...
Alex: WHAT'S GOING ON?
Mike: I've fallen straight into the Arms of God!
A few months
later Mike did go Home to the Light and into the Arms of God where his own
Guides were waiting for him as they had promised they would.
Loving Oneness Now -- Copyright © 2007 Alexander Bannatyne, PhD